Okay soooo I feel really fluffy these days. It’s probably just a combination of vacation and eating poorly, but I really feel very yucky. I hate this feeling! It’s time to rein in my eating habits, simplify my diet, and eat really clean. If I ever want the results I’m ultimately looking for I have to make some changes. I can workout till I’m blue in the face, but if I eat like crap nothing will ever change. I KNOW this, but isn’t it just so hard to exercise self control and judgement when it comes to foods?

I don’t sit there and eat an entire bag of chips, but it probably would equate to that with how much I pick and snack at less than stellar things throughout the day. I really irritate myself in this way. I also need to insist on not eating out. I woke up this morning and had my coffee while I was waking up and then had oatmeal for breakfast. Fantastic..good choice. My mom and I then decided to spend the day shopping and of course I left the house without any type of healthy snack foods. We ended up eating out..I got a sandwich and a salad bar, which is a better choice than some burger place, but it’s still not as healthy as it would be if I had eaten at home. That’s a problem for me, as well as obsessive random snacking. I just pick at food and inhale it incredibly fast. Like my food yesterday was great until dinner. We had leftover spaghetti, which again isn’t horrible but it isn’t great and I had more than one serving of that I’m sure. And then I snacked after dinner and crap. I am so bad about that! Whenever I eat something salty I instantly crave something sweet to balance the flavors. It’s crazy talk but it totally happens. The more I watch my diet and pay attention to what I eat in a day the more I realize I really need to get a handle on the random snacking and eat out less. I need to leave the house prepared with healthy snacks to actually full me up in the times I’m away from home! It’s not that hard I just have to focus and DO IT.

But for real I feel really gross. I feel like ive slipped down the slope a ways. I feel just chunkier. It’s probably not that much difference but I know there is one and I hate that feeling. I tried on lots of cute things and didn’t like any of it just because I feel gross. So that’s something I am going to start working on. Now.