Mile Markers of Life

This morning brought to you by a bed ridden body. I don’t always feel awful during shark week, usually just little aches in my tummy and low back..a 200mg Advil usually fixes me right up.

But not today. I had all these plans to wake up at a decent hour and go get my oil changed and then head to the pool. Its my only day off and my tan is fading fast. Plus the pool closes this weekend pretty sure.

Let’s just say I woke up feeling the worst I have in months. The last time I remember it being this bad, comparable to laying face down with a knife in your belly, was in 8th grade and two years ago during the back half of the turkey trot on thanksgiving day.

Stabbing, aching, horrible pain. Make you wince and sweat and shake. Make you throw up. This month is a bad one. OY!! I got my heating pad and that alone didn’t help so I got some cereal and drugs and got in a hot bath. Well that didn’t help either and I threw up the said food and drugs so I had to take more. The only way I found that makes me not want to die is to lay face down on my bed on a heating pad. I fell asleep and when I woke up the Advil kicked in. Thank you God because that was miserable. Omg

The only things I can think about eating eight now are gummy worms and Chinese food, so I will stay in bed until that notion passes. And then maybe go to the pool if I feel like I will no longer perish when I move.

This has been a post. A pointless tmi post. I do what I want.

Bad food in house means bad food in your belly. No bad food in house means no bad food in your belly.

Don’t buy chocolate and it won’t be a chronic habit of stealing squares of creamy deliciousness from the freezer until the whole giant bar is gone within a few days. Don’t buy chips and the whole bag won’t be gone in two days because you couldn’t stop mindlessly moving your hand from the bag to your face and back. Don’t buy diet soda and it won’t be poisoning your body with chemicals that it doesn’t need. Don’t buy things you know you don’t need and then you won’t have a problem with eating mass quantities of them against your own (smart) will.

I only committed the chocolate felony, but still, these are all relevant to me. I’m a snacker and I can’t stop when it’s something I like a lot.

All just thoughts and observations I’m trying to readily notice, identify, and change for the better.

Move along.

Okay soooo I feel really fluffy these days. It’s probably just a combination of vacation and eating poorly, but I really feel very yucky. I hate this feeling! It’s time to rein in my eating habits, simplify my diet, and eat really clean. If I ever want the results I’m ultimately looking for I have to make some changes. I can workout till I’m blue in the face, but if I eat like crap nothing will ever change. I KNOW this, but isn’t it just so hard to exercise self control and judgement when it comes to foods?

I don’t sit there and eat an entire bag of chips, but it probably would equate to that with how much I pick and snack at less than stellar things throughout the day. I really irritate myself in this way. I also need to insist on not eating out. I woke up this morning and had my coffee while I was waking up and then had oatmeal for breakfast. Fantastic..good choice. My mom and I then decided to spend the day shopping and of course I left the house without any type of healthy snack foods. We ended up eating out..I got a sandwich and a salad bar, which is a better choice than some burger place, but it’s still not as healthy as it would be if I had eaten at home. That’s a problem for me, as well as obsessive random snacking. I just pick at food and inhale it incredibly fast. Like my food yesterday was great until dinner. We had leftover spaghetti, which again isn’t horrible but it isn’t great and I had more than one serving of that I’m sure. And then I snacked after dinner and crap. I am so bad about that! Whenever I eat something salty I instantly crave something sweet to balance the flavors. It’s crazy talk but it totally happens. The more I watch my diet and pay attention to what I eat in a day the more I realize I really need to get a handle on the random snacking and eat out less. I need to leave the house prepared with healthy snacks to actually full me up in the times I’m away from home! It’s not that hard I just have to focus and DO IT.

But for real I feel really gross. I feel like ive slipped down the slope a ways. I feel just chunkier. It’s probably not that much difference but I know there is one and I hate that feeling. I tried on lots of cute things and didn’t like any of it just because I feel gross. So that’s something I am going to start working on. Now.

Oh my does it feel GREAT to feel like I’ve worked again. Only a week off of working out and clean eating and I feel gross and a little fluffier. Am I the only one who can tell changes in their body with hardly any change at all, but you know they’re there? Oh gosh it’s horrible!!

Every part of my body is sore today and it feels so good. I did my beloved barbell yesterday for the first time in probably three Monday’s! It was amazing! I felt like gumbi towards the end of each set! Ha! It feels so good to be back.

I feel like I have ADHD with how I approach my goals and desires in the fitness realm. I just want to do so much and sometimes I don’t know what to do first! :) I want to run more and faster. I want to work on losing fat and gaining muscle—leaning out. And of course taking revenge on the Tri aspect of the spectrum is hot on my brain as well. There’s just so many fun, exciting, and challenging things I want to explore!

It’s good to be home. I will now hobble to class. I haven’t felt this many hot muscles in a while. FEELS GEWD.

Okay so I am on vacation in Utah. I came for a week to see my cousins, and it has been awesome so far! The only thing that’s not awesome, and par for the course on vacation, is eating out. Yuck. I am thankful, though, because I have trained my body well. I am so glad that it doesn’t tolerate unhealthy foods well. It reminds me to be conscious of what I’m putting in my mouth and it helps me to know what’s good and what’s not good. I love knowing what is good for me just by how it makes me feel. I never want to become desensitized to junk food and I never want to abandon my healthy lifestyle! Blah!
And I am dying to go for a run right now. I get home Sunday and will then resume my normal life and immediately start classes Monday.
It’s a busy crazy life but i loveeeeeee ittttt!!

The last time I was sleepily shoveling oatmeal into my face at 4 in the morning was last Sunday before the race.

How did I choose such a hobby that requires such early mornings. I dunno…but I love it.

Expect to be bombarded with pictures all day from the prettiest mountain in the US..a new perspective however as I will be on it instead of in front of it. Let’s do this thang!!

14,115 feet