Week one finished, down 2.2lbs and more motivated then ever to continue on. It’s weird how you try and try and try over and over again to stick with something, to have motivation, to avoid tempting foods and then suddenly you just realize you have to buck up and something switches on in your brain to make it happen. I feel invincible. I feel ready. I can’t wait to get stronger, fitter, and lose weight. I just want to be buff…and I’m gonna make it happen.


Ps you know it’s serious when I’m eating egg whites and the worst thing I could ever put in my mouth is eggs. Each day I eat them I get more accustomed to the sulfary taste that I hate so much.


Three years ago I was a marathon runner graduating high school extremely fit and happy. Fast forward to now I am still very happy, just not very fit. I am a junior in nursing school and the busyness and tired laziness finally caught up to me. You can’t eat crap and not exercise without gaining weight, what!? Yeah… Figured that out. In this time frame I also turned 21 this year so suddenly I was drinking socially upwards of 4-6x per week. It was not ever massive quantities (only sometimes); however, it was obviously enough to help that scale keep creeping upwards and onwards.
Anyways, here we are. I’m not happy with my body and I am exhausted all the time. I’m not strong anymore. As the numbers on the scale kept rising I realized it was time for a serious lifestyle overhaul. I am totally cleaning up my diet, ditching the alcohol 4-5x/week, and getting to the gym on a regular basis. And let’s be honest, those starting photos are scary, but I am so excited for the progress I’ll see over the next coming months. It’s time for a serious change. It will be hard. It will hurt. There will be days where I’m tempted. Days where I fight hard with myself just to get to the gym, days where I feel that this fight is futile and endless.
But I also know this… Anything worth having, worth fighting for, is usually a little difficult.
I’m ready.
Are you?


I joined a women’s soccer team for fun. I also joined to try to get into better shape and run more. The halves are 45 minutes each. We had no subs today. It’s probably working.


If you ever have considered buying a wireless tracker like a fitbit or nike fuel band, definitely without a doubt go with the fitbit. (SAVE YOUR RECEIPT) I bought my wonderful little toy back in September, eager to see how much I really moved in a day. I kept the boxing and the shoved the receipt in the back of a drawer just in case.

The just in case happened 2 weeks ago where I look at my wrist and the familiar black band is no longer there! I contact fitbit customer service to see if there is any discount for lost bands…they work with me, always prompt with replies and tell me solutions to find it. When that didn’t work they asked me to send a copy of my receipt for warranty consideration.

Those people sent me a brand spanking new fitbit, no charge.

GET A FITBIT GUYS. THEY’RE THE BEST AND THE CUSTOMER SERVICE IS REMARKABLE. I’m sold forever. : ) Happy to have my little tracker back where it should be, this time in slate!


So this happened.

Once in a lifetime thing!!!

She is perfection and a great speaker and brilliant and hot and lovely and gorgeous and witty and hilarious and beautiful.

So cool!!


Because you want it right? Haha

-I gave my first shots ever today at school and I received in the belly and one in the hip. Nurse in the making, am I right?

-I went to the Maximize Your Life tour last night with Jillian Michaels and I met her!!!!! I met jillian! I held hands with Jillian and I hugged jillian. My life is made!!!

-I lost my fitbit somewhere on Sunday and I am real depressed… Already planning on buying another because I’m just to lost and sad without it. I’m holding out hope someone finds it but it’s probably on a road or in a field somewhere.

-I joined a women’s soccer league through the community college in town and it’s so fun!! Getting in shape guys!

That’s pretty much the life deets at this point. I can’t wait for the Jillian photos to be posted, I hope they don’t suck.


I always get the impulse to work out and run hard when it’s 10 pm. Why. If you could bottle adrenaline and spritz some on for whenever you needed it…when you needed to swear, when you needed a push…wouldn’t that be handy.

I see posts and motivational videos and it makes me want to run again. Run hard. Run long. Just run.

Do more.



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What exactly do you do when you run out of words for a while? When you lose the meaning of your words, or feel as though you have lost the reason you were writing in the first place? What is it to simply watch and listen rather than jotting everything down? Is it a break, is it permanent or temporary, is it important or useless? If ever I could explain what this break did for me it was to realign my thoughts, refocus, reestablish what I want in life…and of course with 2014 inching closer and closer I feel nostalgic.

Could a year be as good as 2013 was to me?

I took chances. I started nursing school. I gained independence. I told the people who cause me stress, hurt, anxiety, unhappiness to beat it. I found a family of friends that I mesh with, that mean the world to me. I got my first big girl job. I made many amazing, incredible friends with coworkers and learned that maybe I can get to know people, that maybe people do like me for me. I got tattoos and cut off all my hair. I got piercings and attempted races for the 2nd time. I felt like I was brave. I feel like I have really lived.

Could a year ever be as good as 2013 was to me?

I like to believe it could. You know those fleeting moments where the perfect wordless song is on, where it goes down deep into your soul and the flawless instrumental wonder peaks your creativity and punctures your soul to all possibilities? I feel it. I feel it right at this moment. People are always so gung ho on the new year…fresh beginnings, reason to continue; the uncertainty of tomorrow brings about feelings that change and progress are possible. There will always be a soft spot in my heart for the new year. I am a sucker for the chance at possibility, the chance to make progress, the chance to change things we are unhappy about. I welcome adventure with open arms and grasp at the opportunity to bite off more than I can chew. I open my mind to learning anything and everything and standing with arms and eyes wide open, taking in the world as it comes.

2014 is coming.

And I think…maybe…just maybe…it can beat out 2013.

Here is to the best year yet, and so on and so forth, because every year can be the best year of your life.


Considering I can hardly walk today, I have learned a significant lesson about running. Maybe if you aren’t trained, it isn’t smart to do it anyway! I paid 90 bucks for that race, paid for a hotel, and was super excited about a weekend away from crazy school and work. It was so worth it. I wanted to quit and die and sit down for the majority of the race from miles 4-13, but I am glad I didn’t, because I got a sweet ass red medal with the Colorado flag on it. WORTH IT. I could tell what was gonna hurt today yesterday…when you train you hurt, but your body gets used to the time spent pounding on your feet and beating your legs. When you don’t run since August 4 and then attempt to run 13.1 miles through the freezing city streets of downtown Denver, you’ll probably feel some semblance of your body falling apart! My feet and arches, my calves and inner knees, my hamstrings and quads, my ass, my back, my abs, and my shoulders all feel the pain today. But now that I am done and didn’t quit….

WORTH IT. So much fun. I love racing even if it is miserable sometimes. It’s always worth it.

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Sometimes you disappear from a thing that once drove you, gave you joy, gave you incentive. I used to love blogging…so much so that I would do workouts or runs just so I could brag. I didn’t like that. I want to do it for myself, for my own pride and accomplishment. I saved my 1,000th post for a long while, hoping I would uncover the real true reason why I do what I do. It’s fun to do awesome exhilarating things and share them with people who are like you and enjoy the thrill of it. It’s not awesome to do those things just so you can tell people you did. This is my 1000th post and I think I’m over that speed bump.

Rock n Roll 1/2 Denver…check.



For a long time it seemed to me that life was about to begin - real life. But there was always some obstacle in the way, something to be gotten through first, some unfinished business, time to still be served, a debt to be paid. Then life would begin. At last it dawned on me that these obstacles were my life.

This perspective has helped me to see that there is no way to happiness. Happiness is the way. So, treasure every moment that you have. And treasure it more because you shared it with someone special, special enough to spend your time and remember that time waits for no one.

So stop waiting; until you finish school, until you go back to school, until you lose ten pounds, until you gain ten pounds, until you have kids, until your kids leave the house, until you start work, until you retire, until you get married, until you get divorced, until Friday night, until Sunday morning, until you get a new car or home, until your car or home is paid off, until spring, until summer, until fall, until winter, until you are off welfare, until the first or fifteenth, until your song comes on, until you’ve had a drink, until you’ve sobered up, until you die, until you are born again to decide that there is no better time than right now to be happy. Happiness is a journey, not a destination.


-  - Alfred D’Souza
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Massive flash flooding along Colorado Front Range

Rivers continued to swell, roadways crumbled, and Colorado’s Front Range began to dig out from the epic destruction wrought by a historic flood that has become one of the state’s worst disasters.

PHOTOS: Photo gallery of flooding over the last three days. 

LIVE BLOG: Up-to-the-minute coverage after massive flash flooding in Boulder County and across the Front Range. 

LATEST FLOOD HEADLINES: All flood resources and flood news by location.

YES. Bad news.

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